straggling...

I'm soaked in sadness and I am having trouble draining it out of me. I want to be in a happy bouncy mood. I want to do a workout and feel good about myself and feel strong from it. I'm just having a terrible time of it today. I'm trying to swim through it, fix the cause and move on. Trying to find the surface to pop through and take a deep breath...feel the sunshine on my face. It's just so hard for me today. Maybe I just haven't been sleeping well lately. (that always messes with me and gets me down) I'll try to force myself through a workout today anyway. Maybe at the very least a walk. I didn't do anything yesterday. I was babysitting a friends kids for about 28 hours this weekend, which means no rest from the stress and responsibility. That is probably part of what got me down and had me not sleeping well.