again?

I got my workout in this morning. It was tough...more so than usual. I am having trouble breathing clearly today. I've had to use my inhaler a few times already, because now my lungs are hurting a bit when I breathe deep. Not in the same place that was hurting from the bronchitis, lower this time. I've always had breathing problems, my whole life.

As a child, the only thing that got me through gym class was my inhaler. When I would go to my locker, at the top of two half flights of stairs, I would have to catch my breath when I reached the top. That was 7th grade. I haven't ever been able to run far without having an asthma attack, but I lived in the town pool all summer long and rode my bike everywhere. So, it's not like I was out of shape back then, I was more likely at my healthiest.

I know I have to take it easy and be careful with my lungs right now. I was dangerously close to pneumonia again when I got the bronchitis diagnosis, and I'm sure all the scar tissue from the many previous bronchitis infections and that one time I had pneumonia haven't helped. So, damn, my fight just got that much harder. I have no choice but to move forward with it though. I can't stay this way. I won't let diabetes and heart disease take over my life when I get older. My only choice is to keep moving forward with this in any way my lungs will let me. And damn it, I hate going to the doctor...but I think I'm going to have to. I have to talk to him about what is out there that might work best for me. I don't like having to use an inhaler this often. Frustrating!